“Eternal Love ”
The same feeling engulfed me like a little girl going for her first day at school. “Mummy don’t leave me, i need you” but mummy finally decides to leave you there in the midst of unknown faces as she forsee her child’s better future. If she keeps herself strong and let go her every heartbeat for a while, it difficult, it’s a struggle with herself.. can you ever imagine what you feel when you stop breathing for a while, its exactly that feeling. Is that even possible ??i ask. No!! Comes the answer.
Tomorrow is my day for another big leap, for tomorrow I shall leave my baby home and go to “being an adult ” again. My baby be a day old , a month, year or when he is old enough that he leaves my nest ..it will always be hard . Tomorrow he might learn to live without me it will be a proud moment as well as emotional. It is my selfishness I guess too, that i want my baby to look for me.. to miss me when I am not around.. and like that lil girl I want to tell my baby “don’t leave me, I need you” ,miss me but not too much that you cry but enough to keep you smiling.
I still can’t believe am a mom, its like what you all call..ummm…. the “OMG” moment in my life and I have picked up such a big role in this play,
Tomorrow I will leave you for the day, trust me love, whole day I will just be thinking of you. It will be hard for you but it will be much more harder for me. Love!! You are growing, growing really fast. Some how am sure you will get use to it and one day you will be able to be without me, heard kids learnt fast. But will I ever learn, i don’t think so..
I hope to be a good mother to you. I’ve been around so many other children too, was a teacher too, but you are my teacher, you taught me unconditional love..made many first-time-mom mistakes, but you forgive me too soon and still love me for my follies.
I know there will be tough times. I can’t picture what the bad times will be like right now but I think it’s a little unrealistic to think there won’t ever be any. But I do know that we’ll make it through those tough times, and I want you to know that I’m always trying my best. I want to be a good mother and I’ll try my hardest to do what’s right for you.
I love you my baby. Keep growing for mommy. I promise We will grow together.
We will always love you. For you complete us. You are a small piece, aahhh.. nope.. BIGGER. still a NO,a. ..aahhaa.. the biggest piece of our heart. 🙂 Eternal love.